My past marriage was definitely in negative override. So much that I was flooded. I stayed in defensive mode for the longest out of reactions to his criticism and contempt he aimed at me. There were times I thought I was married to the devil himself, and other times I felt as though the devil had possession over me. Eventually, I learned how to stonewall to survive and block those feelings out. By doing this, I learned how to block Satan out of my head. I know it wasn’t good for my marriage, but I knew it was over anyways. It was just a matter of getting brave enough to actually make the step forward and leave.
I feel that Gottman research about strong marriages concentrates on having a strong friendship as a defining characteristic within a couple because if you are friends first you will have more respect for one another. After all, when you are getting to know someone, the main thing you observe is how he or she treats others, whether it is the waiter, a parent, or a friend. If he treats them with respect then he will treat you with respect in the marriage, or she. But if you leave out the friendship out of the relationship then he or she will not hold the same respect for you as he/she does for the friend. If you see each other as friends you are more likely to be mindful of what you say and care about how you treat your partner. For example, my ex-husband didn’t hold much respect for his friends, this should have warned me that he would not hold much respect for me. Even though this should have been a red flag, I passed it off as two guys horsing around with each other. I seen my dad horsing around many times with his buddies, so I thought that this was normal. I should have remembered that my dad also didn’t hold much respect for my mother growing up. He used a lot of criticism and contempt towards my mother and vice versa. My mother can be very nagging not only to my dad but to me and my sister as well as my girls. There are times I have to remind her that nagging does not and is not going to change the outcome of what she wants or doesn’t want to happen. For example, my dad smokes cigarettes. She thinks if she constantly nags at him to quit that he will stop. She also thinks that him running up the fuel card to $400 that gives her the right to nag. I am not saying she shouldn’t be upset or that she shouldn’t discuss it with him. But I know my mother, she didn’t just discuss it with him, she nagged and belittled him about it, and in turn he criticized her and held her in contempt. It is a viscous circle between the two.
As you can see my example of a relationship growing up wasn’t the best. I know they did their best with what they knew, but it wasn’t exactly the correct way to handle issues. In Goddard’s book, it sets the scene where we should place Heavenly Father in the forefront of our relationships and our lives. I am learning how to do this already and thankful for the opportunity to learn even how to place God first in my life even more so. It is a daily thing I have to work on. Also helps you learn how to put others’ needs ahead of your own.
As we keep Heavenly Father first in our lives we keep in mind that in Mosiah 3:19 it mentions, “For the natural man is an enemy of God, and has been since the fall of Adam, and will be, forever and ever, unless he yields to the enticing s of the Holy Spirit, and putteth off the natural man and becometh a saint through the atonement of Christ the Lord, and becometh as a child, submissive, meek, humble , patient, full of love, willing to submit to all things which the lord seeth fit to inflict upon him, even as a child doth submit to his father.” Specifically, how does one overcome the natural man? We overcome the natural man by humbling ourselves to listen to the voice of the Holy Spirit. To be “full of love” by loving one another, “to submit to all things which the Lord see fit” meaning follow His commandments and keep your covenants with Him. To be like a “child” meaning to be willing to learn and grow in the Spirit. Relative to working to overcome the natural man, what have you learned from your life? I have learned to be patient and let God work in my life. I had to get out of the driver’s seat and hand it over to Heavenly Father, to let him lead in guide me in the direction he wants me, for I was lost driving myself.